Prison of Glass

27-01-08
Prison of Glass (by Ahmad Babar):
Looking out through the walls
Of this prison of glass
Scratching my fingers at sand and stone
Hoping to one day walk on grass
Grass that I see everyday
So lush and green on the other side
My shoulder are sore from trying to break these walls
But still I am trapped inside
There is a puddle of my tears in the corner
Every drop had dried out my eyes
Through the roof I see birds hovering
I wish I could fly with them above the skies
I try to shade my face with my arm
To not let it be burnt more by the blazing sun
I go sit back in my corner
Trying not to become
Not to become one of them
Neither to become what I once was
For if I do become
I will lose even what I haven't lost

January

01/01/2008
January (by Ahmad Babar):
The summer has long past
I don't think I can last
Today I feel so insecure
My broken heart longs for more
My dried up eyes are longing for sleep
My empty hands want someone to keep
Someone to hold onto
Someone who is somehow like you
Your smell is still in this air
And your memories continue to prevail
The pain is increasing everyday
If only someone could heal it in your way
This January cold is penetrating my bones
My feet tread over the ruins of our home
The sun is hidden and even the snow isn't falling
With the cold breeze I can hear you calling
I am still here like I used to be
Will be waiting for you to come find me

If Only

16/10/2009
If Only (by Ahmad Babar):
If only it was a 2 hour show
It would be so easy to let go
If only she knew how I had felt
At the moment she left
If only she missed me too
We could start over anew
If only there was no 'if only'
I wouldn't be so lonely

If only I could bring her back
And make up for the things I lack
If only I knew how to mend
She may not need to pretend
If only she knew how to love
I could try to rise above
If only no one said 'if only'
No one would ever feel this lonely

If only there were no goodbye's
Then maybe we won't have to cry
If only she also cared
I wouldn't be this scared
If only she held my hand
Maybe this wouldn't have been our end
If only she didn't make me say 'if only'
I wouldn't be this lonely
If only...

Paris

12/09/2009
Paris (by Ahmad Babar):
I am sitting in Paris
My mind's going astray
I don't think I am lost
But still I can't find my way
I long to get back home
But its a long way away
From the top of the Eiffel Tower
I watch the world sway
Each one to his own music
Each one to her own beat
And I watch them fool eachother
From the best possible seat
There's something really funny about
All of this seriousness
They all pretend they are in paradise
While they are really in a mess
In the fashion capital of the world
In the most romantic city
There is not a single soul with a heart
What a pity
The wind starts to blow
The stars come out onto the sky
As the night draws in
I try to search for a butterfly
A friend once told me
About one up in the sky
Formed by the stars
One that fills you up with joy
As the lights below come on
I commence my descent
Step by step I return to the world
Where one and all pretend
I hope I won't get engulfed
Or let myself be swept away
There's way too much pain in Paris
To tempt me to stay
I set on my way home
On my longest journey
In hope to get back
In hope to rediscover 'me'

Jhoot

21/09/2009
Jhoot (by Ahmad Babar):
Kaho kay kabhi na jao gi
Aur agar gai tau laut aao gi
Kaho kay tum sirf meri he hau
Saath dau gi chahye jau bhi hau
Mujh say tum sach na khena kabhi
Houn mein bus kush yunhi

Jhoot ki ab aadat si hai
Sach say ik nafrat si hai
Mujh say jhoot tum hamesha bolna
Sach keh kar dil na mera torna
Kaho mujh say kay sab theek hai
Theek hai yahan sab theek hai

Karoun ga mein tera intezaar
Bus laut aao aik baar
Jau chaho gi karoun ga mein
Khud say bhi laroun ga mein
Jau kaho gi sunnun ga mein
Jhoot say he kush hau loun ga mein

Mujh say jhoot tum hamesha bolna
Sach keh kar dil na mera torna
Kaho mujh say kay sab theek hai
Theek hai yahan sab theek hai
Jhoot ki ab aadat si hai
Sach say ik nafrat si hai

Meri jaan ab bus jhoot he bolna
Meri jaan jhoot bolna